One of the secrets I have found in my own life has been having the confidence (or not) to live your dream. When you feel tired of life you need to return to this well. This week I want to explore number 7.

Life is not tiring – Wanting life to be a certain way but not having the confidence to make it that way, is tiring.

I remember times when I was very tired. When I first opened my practice I had to learn more about SEO, more about SSL certificates than I EVER wanted to know, insurance, billing, business plans, real estate law, and the list goes on. And believe it or not my kids had not decided that they needed their mom any less or that they were going to pick up all the lego pieces that I stepped on going to the kitchen to make dinner (again).

I was cleaning up after Christmas, working full time, trying to keep all the school meetings and doctor’s appointments on target and sometimes it felt like there was not enough of me to go around. But I still did it even though it was tiring

Early in building my practice I had a moment and that moment of tired was different. I’m not going to lie about it. I doubted myself, completely lost my confidence and wondered if I had what it takes to do all of this. Fortunately, I found my people, talked it out, slept on it before I made any decisions and I am on the other side. But before that, the level of tired of thinking “I’m not enough for this” was more overwhelming than any day of too may checkboxes to put on one page.

But not so long ago I think I would have stayed stuck in my worry, stuck on my doubt. A few years ago I would have said building a website is too hard for me, that my brain didn’t work that way. Trusting that God will provide is too scary unless I really hold on tight to the reins. And I would have been right. All of these things would have been too tiring without the confidence to back it up.

What’s the why?

Guess who’s not tired today and didn’t get stuck then? I’m writing this after all right? While I am doing tiring things I am doing them with the confidence. I am creating the life that I want. I am creating a life where I trust that I am worthy enough for my dreams to come true. Instead of loading my mind down with all the what ifs I am focusing on the what nows.

Now that I have built my practice I help people and have energy left over to really engage with my kids, to go to that random classroom volunteer job, chaperone that field trip, and be home when I need to with no one’s permission but my own. When I travel I get to decide when I go and for how long. I can lean in to my family’s needs when they need me and not when I can take the time. When I look at my success I know that it’s me that created it, it’s not a fluke. When I build this practice I feel valuable and worthy. And while sure I’m special I’m not that THAT special. If I can do this on my dream so can you on yours.

Steps Forward

Every time I face the doubt (and oh, it comes more than once) I remember the life I am building, the goals I am reaching for, and the value of what I want to achieve and I can take another step. I know that I can weather the storm that is coming whether I see it or not because I have confidence in me. I hope for you and me both that when we are tired of life we can take the same steps like I am now to find what part of life you are not confident enough to take a step towards and push that barrier. Plenty of things in life should make you tired but when you find life itself to be tiring it’s time to break through.

If you’re in Texas and want help breaking through get in touch!